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.This was Ryder, and even asleep, even tormented, she knew he wasn t like Max.Knewhe would never hurt her. Ryder, honey.Wake up, she whispered, her face only inches from his.He didn t respond, didn t acknowledge with so much as a blink or a nod that he d heard her.Thatfreaked her out a lot more than being splayed on top of him did.Still, she scooted around, tried to situp, hoping that the movement would pull him out of whatever strange sleep state he was in.But all hersquirming around got her was one large hand on her hip anchoring her in place and another onetangled in her hair. Ryder, she gasped, shocked at how breathless she sounded.But she couldn t help it.His bodyhis hot, hard, aroused body was pressed intimately against her own.And though she knew he didn thave a clue what he was doing, that didn t seem to matter.Her nipples were hard, her breasts aching,her sex damp, all from the feel of Ryder beneath her.It was wrong, and she hated herself for it, butshe couldn t prevent her response any more than he could prevent his nightmares.At the same time, she couldn t let this continue.She needed to get off him, now.But as she shovedat his hands, tried to scramble onto the floor, he opened his eyes and stared directly into her own. Stay, he whispered.She froze.Was he seeing her, talking to her? Or was that one desperate word meant for someoneelse? Please, Jamison, don t go.Don t leave me. His voice was low.Gravelly.Pleading.And she waslost, even before he tugged her down and buried his face in her neck.Chapter FiveThe last vestiges of Ryder s nightmare faded away, helped along by the honeyed peach scent ofJamison stretched above him.He knew he was still dreaming, knew in a few minutes he would openhis eyes and these moments of peace would be gone.But for now he would take the comfort thisDream Jamison was offering and lose himself in it.Revel in it.Taking a deep breath, he held her scent deep inside of himself as he battled once again to put thespecters of his past behind him.It was an unwinnable fight, one that was tearing him apart a littlemore with each day that passed.But he had to try, had to search for just a small reprievefrom the painof all the ways he d failed and all the things he d done wrong.Above him, Jamison crooned wordless sounds of comfort.Her fingers combed gently through hishair, smoothing the tangled mess of it from his face.He stiffened for a second it had been so longsince he d taken solace from anyone that at first he didn t know how to accept what she was offering.But eventually he relaxed, gave himself up to her.How could he do anything else when her touch was soothing him in a way nothing else had in fartoo long? He had no idea why she was here, now, in his dreams, but he wasn t going to question it.And he sure as hell wasn t going to give her up, not when he could feel the tension and self-loathingslowly leaking away, burying themselves deep inside of himself where he kept them locked awaywhen he was conscious.The absence of pain, even for a little while, felt amazing.He wasn t sure how long he lay there, lost in the unfamiliar relief of having Jamison surround him.But he was grateful for every second the dream went on.She didn t move, barely breathed, justwrapped herself around him and let him absorb her warmth and tenderness.It had been so long sincehe d felt these emotions, even longer since he d let himself accept them.But nothing lasted forever, especially not dreams.It was how he d gotten through every night of thelast decade since Carrie had died by knowing that eventually day would come and his nightmarewould end.This was different.He didn t want it to end, didn t want to leave behind the serenity he was feeling.But Jamison started to squirm a little, her body moving over and against his until a different heatstarted to build between them.He groaned at the feel of her, tightened his hand on her hip and pulled her closer until her sex endedup centered directly above his cock.He would hate himself for this dream later, for reducing Jared slittle sister to the basest sexual fantasy, but right now it felt so good that he couldn t stop himself.Couldn t resist.Besides, it wasn t real.No one else had to know what twisted, fucked-up ideas wenton inside his head.This was just one more thing for him to add to the pile of his self-loathing.But later.Much later [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]