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.She brushes her hair back from her forehead.She's all sweaty, and she holds up the knife andlooks at it.There's blood on the blade."The fox sighed."I have fasted and bled for six days without results.Sometimes I doubt I will ever beholy enough to see the pictures.""You cannot see any images on television?"A sly smile, a twitch of whiskers."None of my kind can.It is ironic.We few survivors hide amongyou, attend your schools, work in your field, and yet we do not know you at all.We cannot even seeyour dreams.""It's just a machine."'Then why can we see nothing on it but a bright and shifting light?""I remember--" he began, almost dropped the thought, then caught the wind and sailed effortlesslyforward -- "I remember talking with a man who said that the picture does not exist.That the images aremade in two parts and woven together within the brain.""If that is so, then our brains must lack the loom, and we will never see your dreams." The creaturelicked its lips with a long black tongue.The bureaucrat felt a sudden shiver of dread."This is madness," he said."I cannot be talking with you.""Why is that?""The last haunt died centuries ago.""There are not many of us left, true.We were very near extinction before we learned how to survivein the interstices of your society.Physically altering our appearance was easy, of course.But passing ashuman, earning your money without attracting your interest, is more of a challenge.We are forced to hideamong the poor, in shanties at the edge of farmlands and shotgun flats in the worst parts of the Fan."Well, enough of that." Fox stood, offered his hand, raised the bureaucrat to his feet.He helped himinto his jacket, and handed him his briefcase."You must leave now.I really ought to kill you.But yourconversation was so interesting, the early parts especially, that I will give you a short head start." Heopened his mouth to show row upon row of sharp teeth."Run!" he said.He had been running through the forest so long, crashing through tunnels of feathery arches, stumblinginto towers of spiked and antlered tentacles that collapsed noiselessly about him, that it had become asteady state of existence, as natural and unquestionable as any other.Then it all melted about him, and hewas in a boneyard, among skeletons grown together and refreshed, rib cages growing fungal breasts,pelvises sprouting pale phalluses, and incurvate vaginas.The dead were reborn as monsters, twins andtriplets joined at hip and head, whole families overwhelmed by yeasting masses, a single skull peering upfrom the top, red-painted teeth agape as if it were either laughing or screaming.Then that was gone too, and he was stumbling across flat, empty ground.Gasping, he stopped.Theearth here was hard as stone.Nothing grew on it.To one side he could hear the excited water music ofCobbs Creek, in full flood and eager to merge with the river.This would be the dig site, he realized, a fulleighth-mile square injected down to the bedrock with stabilizers after burying no fewer than three sealednavigation beacons in its heart, against the return of the land in a new age.He breathed convulsively,lungs afire.Was I running? he wondered, and felt the sudden dead weight of futility as he rememberedthat Undine was dead."I found him!" someone cried.A hand touched his shoulder, spun him around.Slowly he turned, and a fist struck his jaw.He fell, legs sprawling out beneath him.His head smashed to the ground, and his arms flew wide.With a vague, all-encompassing amazement he felt a booted foot crash into his ribs."Whoof!" His breathfled out of him, and he knew the grinding darkness of granite-boned earth turning under impact.Something loose and giving.Three dark figures floated above him, shifting in planes of depth, movement defining and redefiningtheir spatial relationship with each other and himself.One of them might have been a woman.He was tooalert to possibilities, his attention too quick and darting, to be sure.They danced about him, imagesmultiplying and leaving dark trails, until he was woven into a cage of enemies."What," he croaked."Whatdo you want?"His voice gonged and reverberated, coming deep and from a distance, like a vast drowned bell tollingfrom the bottom of the sea.The bureaucrat tried to raise his arms, but they responded oh so slowly.Itwas as if he were consciousness alone, seated within the head of a carved granite giant.They beat him with a thousand fists, blows that rippled and overlapped, leaving pain in their wake.Then, abruptly, it was over.A round face, limned with witch-fire, floated into view.Veilleur smiled down on him mockingly."I told you there were ways and ways," he said."Nobodyever takes me seriously, that's my problem."He took up the briefcase."Come on," Veilleur said to the others."I've got what we were after."Then gone.Time was a flickering gray fire constantly consuming all things, so that what appeared to be motionwas actually the oxidation and reduction of possibility, the collapse of potential matter from grace tonothingness.The bureaucrat lay watching the total destruction of the universe for a long time.Perhaps hewas unconscious, perhaps not.Whatever he was, it was a state of awareness he had never experiencedbefore.He had nothing to compare it to.Could one be drugged-conscious and drugged-asleep? Howwould you know? The ground was hard, cold, damp, under him.His coat was torn.He suspected thatsome of the dampness was his own blood.There were too many facts to deal with.Still, he knew heshould be concerned about the blood.He clung to that island scrap of surety even as his thoughts spundizzily around and around, lofting him high to show him the world and then slamming him down to beginthe voyage again.He dreamed that a creature came walking down the road.It had the body of a man and the head of afox.It wore a tattered pair of dungarees.Fox, if Fox it was, halted when he came to where the bureaucrat lay, and crouched beside him.Thatsharp-nosed face sniffed at his crotch, his chest, his head."I'm bleeding," the bureaucrat said helpfully.Fox frowned down at him.Then that head swung away again, dissolving into the air.He was whirled up into the ancient sky, thrown high as planets into old night and the void.7.Who Is the Black Beast?The common room was dark and stuffy.Thick brocade curtains with tinsel-thread whales and roseschoked out the afternoon sun.Floral pomanders sewn into the furniture failed to mask the smell ofmildew; rots and growths were so quietly pervasive here that they seemed not decay but a naturalprogression, as if the hotel were slowly transforming itself from the realm of the artificial to that of theliving. "I won't see him," the bureaucrat insisted."Send him away.Where are my clothes?"Mother Le Marie placed soft, cool brown-spotted hands on his chest and forced him back down onthe divan, more by embarrassment than actual force."He'll be here any minute now.There's nothing youcan do about it.Be still.""I won't pay him." The bureaucrat felt weak and irritable, and strangely guilty, as if he had donesomething shameful the night before.The water-stained plaster ceiling liquefied and flowed in his vision,its cracks and imperfections undulating like strands of seaweed.He squeezed his eyes shut for an in stant.Nausea came and went in long, slow waves.His bowels felt loose [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]