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.But she didn't feel like being kind to him.He could take it."The cabin," he said, having pondered a little."My second visit to him, he was asking about daydreams,and I told him that sometimes I had daydreams about having a place in the Wilderness Areas, you know,a place in the country like in old novels, a place to get away to.Of course I didn't have one.Who does?But last week, he must have directed me to dream that I did.Because now I do.A thirty-three-yearlease cabin on Government land, over in the Siuslaw National Forest, near the Neskowin.I rented abatcar and drove over Sunday to see it.It's very nice.But.""Why shouldn't you have a cabin? Is that immoral? Lots of people have been getting into those lotteriesfor those leases since they opened up some of the Wilderness Areas for them last year.You're just luckyas hell.""But I didn't have one," he said."Nobody did.The Parks and Forests were reserved strictly aswilderness, what there is left of them, with camping only around the borders.There were noGovernment-lease cabins.Until last Friday.When I dreamed that there were.""But look, Mr.Orr, Iknow ""I know you know," he said gently."I know, too.All about how they decided to lease parts of theNational Forests last spring.And I applied, and got a winning number in the lottery, and so on.Only Ialso know that that was not true until last Friday.And Dr.Haber knows it, too.""Then your dream last Friday," she said, jeering, "changed reality retrospectively for the entire State ofOregon and affected a decision in Washington last year and erased everybody's memory but yours andyour doctor's? Some dream! Can you remember it?""Yes," he said, morose but firm."It was about the cabin, and the creek that's in front of it.I don'texpect you to believe all this, Miss Lelache.I don't think even Dr.Haber has really caught on to it yet; hewon't wait and get the feel of it.If he did, he might be more cautious about it.You see, it works like this.If he told me under hypnosis to dream that there was a pink dog in the room, I'd do it; but the dogGenerated by ABC Amber LIT Converter, http://www.processtext.com/abclit.htmlcouldn't be there so long as pink dogs aren't in the order of nature, aren't part of reality.What wouldhappen is, either I'd get a white poodle dyed pink, and some plausible reason for its being there, or, if heinsisted that it be a genuine pink dog, then my dream would have to change the order of nature to includepink dogs.Everywhere.Since the Pleistocene or whenever dogs first appeared.They wouldalways have come black, brown, yellow, white, and pink.And one of the pink ones would havewandered in from the hall, or would be his collie, or his receptionist's Pekinese, or something.Nothingmiraculous.Nothing unnatural.Each dream covers its tracks completely.There would just be a normaleveryday pink dog there when I woke up, with a perfectly good reason for being there.And nobodywould be aware of anything new, except me and him.I keep the two memories, of the two realities.Sodoes Dr.Haber.He's there at the moment of change, and knows what the dream's about.He doesn'tadmit that he knows, but I know he does.For everybody else, there have always been pink dogs.Forme, and him, there have and there haven't.""Dual time-tracks, alternate universes," Miss Lelache said."Do you see a lot of old late-night TVshows?""No," said the client, almost as dryly as she."I don't ask you to believe this.Certainly not withoutevidence.""Well.Thank God!"He smiled, almost a laugh.He had a kind face; he looked, for some reason, as if he liked her."But look, Mr.Orr, how the hell can I get any evidence about yourdreams? Particularly if you destroyall the evidence every time you dream by changing everything ever since the Pleistocene?""Can you," he said, suddenly intense, as if hope had come to him, "can you, acting as my lawyer, ask tobe present at one of my sessions with Dr.Haber if you were willing?""Well.Possibly.It could be managed, if there's good cause.But look, calling in a lawyer as witness inthe event of a possible privacy-infringement case is going to absolutely wreck your therapist-patientrelationship.Not that it sounds like you've got a very good one going, but that's hard to judge fromoutside.The fact is, you have to trust him, and also, you know, he has to trust you, in a way.If you throwa lawyer at him because you want to get him out of your head, well, what can he do? Presumably he'strying to help you.""Yes.But he's using me for experimental " Orr got no further: Miss Lelache had stiffened, the spiderhad seen, at last, her prey."Experimental purposes? Is he? What? This machine you talked about is it experimental? Has it HEWapproval? What have you signed, any releases, anything beyond the VTT forms and thehypnosis-consent form? Nothing? That sounds like you might have just cause for complaint, Mr.Orr.""You might be able to come observe a session?""Maybe.The line to follow would be civil rights, of course, not privacy.""You do understand that I'm not trying to get Dr.Haber into trouble?" he said, looking worried."I don'twant to do that.I know he means well.It's just that I want to be cured, not used.""If his motives are good, and if he's using an experimental device on a human subject, then he shouldGenerated by ABC Amber LIT Converter, http://www.processtext.com/abclit [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]